It’s late and I just went in to check on the little ones. They are so beautiful when they are sleeping. I sigh at the miracles that they are.
Three years ago, I would never have imagined that I would be raising children all over again. Babies. I would never have dreamed that I would be a mother all over again and continue to raise children until I die. Because really that is the cold hard facts of this. I am no spring chicken, (at least that’s what my bones keep telling me) and I will be old when they are teenagers. Yes they are blessed to have me, but I am also blessed to have them.
Some days are hard, I mean, oh my Gawd hard, and I think to myself, what in the world are you doing this for. But that thought only lasts for a fleeting second. All it takes is one I love you mommy or a kiss or one of their silly grins to melt my heart, and I know exactly why I am doing this. Because if I didn’t….they would have been adopted out to strangers as young babies. That couldn’t happen, not while I am still breathing.
So, while I didn’t give birth to these children, they are my blood and they came from my heart. I am their mommy in every meaning of the word mommy. They own me heart and soul. I would sacrifice everything for them. I think I might have already sacrificed my sanity…but heck, whose to say whats sane or not anymore huh.
Mini Bug is now 3 1/2 and she is really developing her own personality. I can understand more and more of what she says, and she might be president one day, because she sure has the gift of gab. Or maybe a college professor because she can go on and on, and most of the time nobody knows what in the heck she is talking about. Mini Bug has been close to me since she was born, she came to live with me permanently when she was 11 months old. I have loved her before she was even born. She stole my heart from the first moment I held her. She is the only girl from my immediate family. I had 3 sons, all of my other sons, had sons. This is the only girl. Of course she is special!
Mighty Bug..well, he is going to be a little heart breaker. That boy is cute and charming. He has a smile that could melt a glacier. Very loving little boy, that appears to be a fast learner. But then he has an advantage, he has an older sister to watch. He will learn faster because of her. Mini Bug didn’t have that. It’s hard to believe that the baby’s 1st birthday has come and gone. He is 14 months old today. Oops yesterday as it’s after midnight and already the 5th. I had him since he was less than a month old. It took that long to get him because I moved out of state and the courts had to draw the paper work up so everything was nice and legal. The first time I looked in his eyes, I knew, I just knew, he was my son. Again, not from my body, but from my heart and soul. Yes my son and his gf made these precious angels. But God gave them to me to raise and protect. Which I do willingly with love.
The day will come when I have to decide whether to tell them the truth or not. It will all depend on their frame of mind, and how they grow. As of now, I feel that it is the right thing to tell them when they are old enough to understand. I see no need to get into all the horrible details, just the facts. Time will let me know the correct decision to make.
We are trying hard to save the money to officially adopt them. We have permanently legal custody of them right now, and that’s ok. But we want the children to grow up with a sense that they are in a normal family. I don’t want them to think they are different from other children. I want them to have a mommy and daddy raising them..not a grandmother and grandfather. So, we are saving, because it’s very very expensive, more so than we thought. Or should I say, it’s more expensive down here in Florida then it would have been back home in PA.
So much on my mind, so many problems..with no solutions that won’t hurt others. So what do I do instead…I watch this.
This is my absolute favorite movie. I love the song too. But I better get my sorry butt to bed and force myself to sleep. Tomorrow morning will come fast and I have to be ready for the morning chaos. On second thought, let’s make this a little fun. First three commenters who get the name of the movie right AND the name of the song right, will win >drum roll please< 400 EC credits. How’s that for fun Remember, you must know the name of the movie and the name of the song to win.
This one is easy…
oh and I’m sorry for not replying to everyone’s comments. I will get to them all this week. Some of your comments in the past posts were excellent, thank you. As you all know, time is not very often on my side, but I didn’t want any of you to think I didn’t notice, and wasn’t going to reply back. I will. I want to.
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Thank you all for visiting each and every day and dropping on me and reading and commenting.
These are my 10 Top Droppers for the month of February.
The Natural State Hawg
Come on over for some random observations from an Arkansas boy. Fun, fun. Brick For Jade
Anything and everything that make me buzzzzzz …….. Mommy’s Little Corner
A blog that talks about my adventures of being a wife and a mom. This blog also focuses on food, nutrition and health. Anything Goes W/ Pahn
Anything Goes w/ Pahn is a personal website of Pahn to weblog his views, opinion and some story to the world wide web. Zero
Zero’s Blog Computer Aid
Interesting PC problems encountered by a Computer Tech. Plus some other stuff Dallas Marketing Services
Dallas Marketing Services provides free marketing ideas, tips, and resources to assist businesses with optimizing their online and offline marketing efforts. Moshi & Kibo’s Dog Blog
Moshi and Kibo are 2 English Toy Spaniels that share their travels, great finds and general thoughts on life with the dogosphere and the rest of the world. my review
My review about anything The Way I See It
My thoughts, opinions and personal observations on a wide variety of subjects, sometimes mixed with humor and including travel, retirement, opinion, politics, child sponsorship with Children International and life experiences. News and views from my perspective.
I just got my very first blog review. I bought it from the EntreCard Market Place. Which is a fantastic bloggers market, if you haven’t checked it out yet, it’s definitely worth your time.
I think, that considering my blog isn’t even a year old yet, I did pretty good I’m happy with it.
Check it out here, and see what “From in the Bubble” had to say about Spicybugz.com
I think what most readers don’t realize is that when I put a post up, I have to do it fast, like super fast, otherwise, I won’t be able to do it. As soon as I start typing, and the family hears the click click click of the keyboard, something snaps in their brains, that mom isn’t available to them and they instantly need me. Same damn thing happens when the phone rings. So sometimes, I just don’t have the time to catch my spelling mistakes, or grammar errors. I just all hope you over look that typo once in a while and think to yourself…wow, she was able to get a post out. Anyways, go look at the review, and then please come back here and let me know what you think of it. Would you have scored me higher or lower on certain things or not.
These are my Top 25 Droppers. The First 15 being rewarded with a thumb print of their site, the remaining 10 gets a link.
I know most people only recognize their top 10. But I’m Spicybugz and I like to do things my own way.
I want to thank you all, those listed and those not, for taking the time out of your busy days, and stopping by my lil space on the web and reading me, commenting, and dropping. It means a lot to me. Again, Thank You!
And While your here, it would put a huge smile on my face if you would subcribe to my email feed reader. Just look over on my side bar and click the subscribe here link. There is only 1 lonly subscriber over there and I feel bad about that. Thanks again
Baking this year is turning out to be a chore made in hell. How in the hell can you mix, spoon, bake, take off the trays to cool, while holding a screaming baby, and trying to keep the other ones fingers out of everything? Dealing with a million phone calls from back home about my dad dying, dealing with the roofer fixing the roof, etc etc.
God help me. Better yet..you all help me. Send me your favorite cookies…homemade of course Aww heck, I know I know, wish in one hand, shit in the other and see which one is heavier right? hahahaha. Can’t blame me for trying.
These are the great bloggers that made it to my top drop list. Thanks everyone for dropping on me every day. I really do appreciate it.
Alteredevents
My Unique Altered Accessories Costume Fantasy Shop Blog for special events. *Supports the Handmade Community
Brick For Jade
Anything and everything that make me buzzzzzz ……..
Random Ramblings
Personal observations on a wide variety of subjects. Photographs of creatures and things that are taken on seeing the unusual as well as everyday things.
Wonderful Things in LIfe
This blog is all about everything like encouragements, family, arts, my awards, health tips, entertainment, travel, blogging, business and etc.
Earn Blogger
A Blog about Blogging and Make Money Online
24patrol
Lets us talk about news, trends, environment and information online
Journal of Journey
Blogging about anything that is interesting and sometimes talks about SEO as well.. My gypsygoods
Life, creative moments, saving money, nature, eco-friendly tips.
Supporting the handmade community MamaFlo’s Place
Starting with my quit and running through retirement, this is my life. Comedy Plus
You just can’t take life so seriously. There is just so much to laugh about. Look around. See that? Now that’s funny. Tiddly Winks
This blog is just “because” no theme, no particular direction travelled, I have different thoughts and I go through phases and fashions often so you just never know what the heck will happen here. Happy Moments.. Happy Thoughts!
Blog about family, health, fashion, funny pictures and video Through The Lens
Another world emerges through the lens of a camera. Roxiticus Desperate Housewives
Former disc jockey, current investment banker & mom-of-2 reporting on the neighboring desperate housewives or whatever else the milkman may have delivered today. Best of Mendham Bernardsville Chester Peapack-Gladstone Far Hills and Morris County NJ.
Roxy’s Best Of…
The best local kid stuff (sports, ballet, tennis lessons, birthday parties, etc.), restaurants, personal services (pediatricians, hair salons), food and wine (caterers, butchers), shopping…coming to your town next! Empty Streets
This is a place where you can find a convergence of thoughts and lifestyle. Where technology and philosophy take a mix My Point Of View
My views of new products, services and experiences.
Right after Thanksgiving I am going to attempt to bake Christmas Cookies this year. I say attempt, because of the little ones.
I figure if I can make the doughs while they are sleeping each day, then I can bake them while they are awake. I’m hoping it turns out ok.
The problem is, I seemed to have lost my Christmas Cookie recipes. Must of happened during the move from PA to FL. I have searched high and low for the one recipe book that I had that was also packed full of pieces of paper that had so many recipes hand written on.
So, help me out here, share your favorite holiday cookies and recipe. Simple is good. Tastier is even better
Don’t forget about theCONTESTgoing on right now here at Spicybug’z World!
PS If your looking for some unique gifts for the holidays, check out my sidebar.
Also I should add, that I will make a post in the very near future, posting everyone’s recipes with a link back to your site.
I just signed up at Acobox.com to use their free blog pictures hosting service.
Sometimes I get tired of searching and searching for just the right picture to put in my blog. At Acobox.com, all of their images are free, and I don’t have to worry about copyright and license and all that stuff.
The sign up was simple and their service is very easy to use. They even resize the pictures and everything for you. You just click on the button for the size you want, and then copy the link and place in it your blog. Very simple and easy, and I’m all about simple and easy.
They have quite a few images to chose from, and a lot of different categories. All the pictures are crystal clear and beautiful. Here is an example of a Hot Pepper…you know I love things “spicy”. You don’t have to download anything and you don’t have to worry about having an image library, they maintain that for you.
So the next time you can’t find that perfect image, or your looking for free images to use on your blog, check out acobox.com and I’m sure you will find the perfect blog pictures your looking for. Did I mention..It’s Free!
When I first started blogging, I didn’t have a clue about html coding. To be honest I still don’t, but I did learn some of the basic ones. When I need serious help I can always turn to Dr. Corny, and depending on his work load, I can get immediate help or have to wait until he has free time. To be honest I like to try to figure things out myself, sometimes that leads to disasters that only he can fix. So I will share with you all the few things that I have learned in the next several posts.
To add a link you use the <a href=”location”> opening tag and </a> closing tag.
Whatever appears between these two tags will become underlined and colored, and if you click on the underlined text it will send the browser to the location within the quotes.
If you are just linking to a page in the same directory as your current page, you don’t need the domain, just the page name. If you have a page called contactme.html, you can use the code
Remember, you must know the name of the movie and the name of the song to win. 
Aww heck, I know I know, wish in one hand, shit in the other and see which one is heavier right? hahahaha. Can’t blame me for trying.
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