My Candy Girl
Today has been an emotional roller coaster for me. I didn’t go to bed until almost 5 am. I was so sad and crying and just depressed. Mini bug is still not feeling well, and I was taking care of her most of the night also.
Mini Bug came and woke me up this morning, with her usual, good morning mommy, shaking my head wake up. I got out of bed, and I noticed immediately that it was only me and Mini Bug home. My heart sank. I knew my husband has left with Candy Girl and Mighty Bug. I went outside, lit a cigarette and just cried. I didn’t even get to say goodbye. I really really haven’t cried that hard in many years.
About an hour later, my husband came home. I watched him come in with the baby. I just looked at him. He looked at me. I said, so Candy is gone? He said, no bug, she is right here, and in came Candy Girl. Then I noticed that my husbands eyes, looked a slightly bit swollen. The first thing I did was hug him and said Thank you…the next thing I asked was what happened. He said, he went to the peoples home, and sat in the car on the road just looking at the neighborhood. He said he didn’t like it. Didn’t have a good feeling. Then he said he got out of the car, and Candy, who usually jumps out of the car as soon as the door is opened, didn’t, she ran to the very back of the car, on the rear dash and tried to hide up there. That’s when he knew…no. He got back in the car and drove back home. I get to keep my dog. I am so happy and so whewwwwww relieved. But I had taken several Valium at 5 am so that I could force myself to sleep, that I have been in a bit of a fog all day. I am so happy that he couldn’t do it. I am so happy that for whatever reason….something touched his heart and changed his mind. I will make more of an effort to play with Candy girl more often. But really, it’s not like she is ignored…the kids play with her all the time. Mini Bug adores her…and they chase each other all over the house all day long sometimes. Mighty bug laughs at her, he isn’t sure what she is, but Candy makes him laugh.
When my husband said that I don’t have time for her anymore, he told me today, that he meant that I don’t have time to let her out to pee. Which is true, sometimes I forget, because I am so busy with kids and daily living, that I sometimes forget to let the dog out. When I got Candy, she only 3 pounds and it was in the winter. She was way to young and little to go outside in the snow and cold. So I trained her on pee pee pads. She was very good about it. Then when spring came, I moved the pee pee pad outside, and she learned to go outside. Now…because I forget to pay attention to her, she pees on the throw rugs in the bathroom, because in her doggy mind…they are pee pee pads. I don’t mind picking up the throw rug and washing it, but my husband hates it. So, if I want to keep Candy, I have to stop her from doing that and pay attention and let her out to pee. I told my husband it would be nice to have a doggy door on the bathroom door that leads outside. He agreed…but said the kids are still so little that they could go out it also. So, to retrain myself, to remember about Candy, I think I will go buy one of those kitchen timer thingy things…and keep setting it to go off every hour, to remind myself to let Candy out. I want to keep my dog!!!
He also mentioned that he would like me to look into some orlando vacations package deals. He said instead of going to the beach this Christmas, maybe it would be nice to take the kids to Disney. I don’t want to go to Disney, I want to go to the beach…but now is not the time, to argue. I won today. I will hold my tongue for a bit 
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