SpicyBugz World

I feel so bad, really I do. While we were all down and sick last week, my best friend from PA came down to FL to visit with her son and to go to Daytona for Bike week. She had called me while I was sick and asked if she could come over. I told her that we were all really sick, and I didn’t want company. I could tell she was disappointed. She called me to tell me that she was back at her sons (about an hour from me) and were getting ready to drive back home. They were taking their motor-home back with them that he had borrowed. I told her that she should check to make sure she had some kind of motorhome warranty, that driving back home was over 1,000 miles and they aren’t spring chickens anymore. She laughed and told me not to worry. But…I could tell that she was hurt that I didn’t offer for her to come over before she left. I don’t know why I didn’t.

She has been my friend since I was 18 yrs old..that is one hell of a long friendship. I do love her, and feel like she is family. I have just been so stressed lately and have so much on my plate, that I just am not in the mood for company. Thinking about it, maybe I just didn’t want her to see how stressed I really am. She loves me to death, and I am sure it would upset her to the max. I dunno…for whatever reason, I didn’t invite her here. Now I feel really bad about it. Next time I go out, I think I will get a special card for her and send it. Sigh..I can be such a turd sometimes.

I had an awful day today, Mini Bug had more energy then the energizer bunny, and wanted my full attention all day long. I didn’t get a break. Even while on the phone, with important calls, she was right next to me screaming her head off that she pooped a “big” poopie…a really really big poopie! I’m sure the lawyer I was talking to was impressed. I also had a huge argument with son #2 today. In fact he just called me a little bit ago to say he was sorry.   I know he is hurting, but until the day comes that he actually starts listening to me, and takes my advice, there is little I can do for him.  It just is what it is, for now….and life goes on.